x-desertrose-x

She Says "So this will be our fifth session, correct? Let me get out my notebook.. Okay... Let's talk." So i open up and talk. She writes.. Patient was raped as a child. It seems so final when its printed The night I lost my smile Simplified into black ink. Maybe it's easier for you though. Because your job is not to feel how I feel Just to organize and solve my problems. Patient is a cutter. All that hurt shoved into one simple sentence Are my scars really that simple though? Handwriting gracefully spread on the page Contrasts these jagged scars. Theres so much more to it all Blood can't be simplified. Or summarized. Patie

Alone in my room I lie on the Floor... Close my eyes And pretend that I'm dead. When tears start to come I hold my fingers like a gun And point them at my head. They say I flirt with suicide I stand by the lake With weigths tied to my feet And will myself to jump in. I stand on the edge of the cliff Taking baby steps closer And pray gravity wins. They say I flirt with suicide I take pills to cure the ache And tell myself all I have to do Is swallow a little more. I carve into my skin and smile As I imagine cutting deeper And the blood spilling to the floor. They say I flirt with suicide I lie on the road in the Blacknes

"I can't get my head around reality"  she says "We're just living to die" That's why at night she cries But really that's all a selfish lie That she tells herself So she won't have to change her Life Unable to see past her pain She doesn't want to submit to God's name Cutting her skin because Life is so "bad" Though this Life is the only Heaven she'll ever have Since she calls His creation a "conspiracy" All she'd have to do is believe.. But she's content to sit in her own blood and grieve If you look into her eyes they're filled with empty selfish lies Of her Life... But she likes it that way.. Never being satisfied Going th

Just like a Cigarette You make it hard to breathe... But I can't say no to you.. It's always you i need You make all this go away I have to have you everyday Just like a Cigarette You make it hard to breathe... I know that you'll be the Death of me But for now you give so much security I love how you tase on my lips With that addictive nicotine kiss Just like a Cigarette You make it hard to breathe... But I will never let you go Though my heart bleeds I know You will always be there And even if I die I won't care... You're just like a Cigarette You make it hard to breathe... And I Love it...

I picked up my pen to write my emotions But no words would come That was the hardest part I picked up my camera, looked through the lens But there was no beauty in anything That was the hardest part I turned up the volume so I could dance But there was no rythym That was the hardest part I opened my mouth to sing But there was no melody That was the hardest part I went outside for a run But I couldn't move fast enough That was the hardest part I called my friends for company But they didn't understand That was the hardest part I tried to dress up... Put on a smile But inside I was still ugly That was the hardest part I we